Social Media Meltdown

Social Media Meltdown

I am going to be real honest and vulnerable here about something that happened to me yesterday involving something that is a huge part of a lot of our lives.

Social Media and that little App called Instagram.

Yesterday I woke up and got straight to it. By that I mean, on my phone on instagram. You probably know exactly what I mean when I say that's not a helpful way to wake up at all. Opening my eyes then hopping on to that little screen. This is very unlike me to do. So of course, it made the beginning of my day a little weird.

No, let's be honest. A lot weird!!! I had a rising that was full of rage and anger, all this energy that wanted to be released. And you know what caused me to feel this anger? I posted a photo that I edited with the blue light blocking Night Mode Shift on my iPhone. I posted it then realized after posting it and it getting likes and comments “oh shit that's way too blue for my feed!” Not to mention, my last posts didn't get very much activity, (honestly I feel like a crazy person talking like this that's why I think it's so important to let it out and be real because I can't be the only one) I am practicing being honest with myself by admitting to myself and you that - hey, yeah instagram is a big part of my life, and to ignore that would be silly. 

I like the app and I have fun on it. But when I realize it can actually have the power to make my day weird, then I wake up and realize, “Wait woah Demi let’s get this together - let's have an understanding that can be beneficial. A clear relationship to the app.”

Because with this clear understanding of what I want to use the app for and what benefits it can bring to me and my passions - then and only then can I be productive on it. And can I treat it the way that will be helpful for me and also those who interact with me on the app. I dream of my presence on Instagram that looks like practice sharing love and light - and helpful beautiful things that can allow one to have a deeper connection with themself in a loving and gentle way. Also, being real, showing up in my truth.

So yesterday I took a technology detox, I stayed off my phone all day. I did nothing but lay around, read, walk around the beautiful place I live here in Bali, and honestly I could have done it for a lot longer - and I probably will. But for now I did feel the call to write, to share, because this is also a practice that allows me to have a better understanding of myself.

Be Gentle With Your Self.

(Huge Reminder to Myself - it is an important one.) 

Gracefully Existing.

I love you - and the light in me honors and sees the light within you!

Demi